Erotophoria

I’m not sure where to start, so I’ll start in the past. She wasn’t my girlfriend, and though I just met her that didn’t keep me from silently wishing to lick her. Think of this as a taste of my commonly erotic whimsy:

“cute girl… la la la.” - that’s what you are. i can’t deny it. i have to say it.

you are cute, yes you are.

except you don’t like oral sex. and i feel sorrow, for some reason.

don’t tell me that you’ve already got a boyfriend, and that you enjoy sex with him without being feasted upon, i don’t care about that part, and i don’t want to hear it.

but you wouldn’t enjoy the flickering softness of a devoted mouth? the worship of your body with my lips and tongue? i don’t understand. i mean, i know there are people out there who don’t like being consumed… but… why? i feel like crying, like relishing in the pain of knowing that out of all the beauty in this world which can be appreciated this one simple pleasure… you don’t enjoy it?

i am crying. perhaps it’s just wishful thinking. perhaps i simply enjoy the rapturous pleasure of consuming my partner far too much to even consider what it must be like to be with someone who wouldn’t enjoy it…

but i’ve been in relationships with people like this before. maybe that’s why i feel sore inside. maybe i’m reminded of a powerfully passionate desire allowed to fester, burning and blistering inside, tearing away into some gaping void while i yearned for the pleasure of a moan… with a taste.

a sweet softness of flesh flowing with appreciation, lovingly tickled by the unspeaking voice of my animalistice desire for your pleasure.

you would deny me this? you would leave me feeling broken inside, with the knowledge that you wouldn’t want to wrap your legs around my buried face, beg with your rocking hips, and demand from me that i not stop until you say so?

these are not false tears. they are real.

i will never understand you.

will you cry with me? or will you consider me odd… and wonder at my peculiar desire to be so consumed by a feast.

~Virgohippy

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